You don't need to bet right this moment, you can be patient. I, on the other hand, NEED to generate plays, yet I still have to be patient.
It's fukkin stressful.
And top be clear, my stress isn't from variance or losing, I have faith in the process to not even worry about that.
It's from trying to generate enough plays to clock that grip.
The losing that could happen to me comes from a break in discipline, because patience can run thin when you're under pressure to succeed.
Shit, I just took two weeks off out of necessity, triggered by having a good trade that I missed because I had to leave the office.
That sent me on tilt, not making bad trades, but just pissed by asking myself "what the fukk am I doing in the lab when I'm not there to trade?"
Tha anger stuck with me for a whole week, I shut down the trading desk.
Then I reminded myself, because I be forgettin', that I uncovered the trade, and can do it again, and that's a success right there. Getting down has always been it's own game, separate from the lab work.